Phone Call Not Visit

So this morning I got up earlier than usual for me. Took a shower and got ready for the day. I don't mind doing my hair and makep because I've been a little lazy & somewhat depessed. So despite what happened later I don't regret it.

About 20 after 9 my cell phone rang and it was my guy friend. His morning was busier than he expected but he still wanted to say hi and chat. So we chatted until a little after 10.

Still a good guy & spaz. I can't place my finger on it but sometimes while talking w/him reminded me of Matt. Not in a bad way and it happened so fast that I couldn't place my finger on it. Maybe it's how he spoke but I don't know.

It did make me a little sad cuz I miss Matt a lot. He was my best and truest friend until his disappearing act. During the call the saddness was only fleeting like the moment because this guy is a spaz and can make me laugh. Plus our conversation was all over the place which is nothing unusual w/this guy.

Yes, I do realize I have not mentioned his name. It's not because I am embarassed by him or anything. I don't want anything read into things. Plain & simple he's just a guy friend.

I also wonder if it's because I mentioned him about a yr or so ago to a former friend and her reaction was like he was beneath her. She complimented his parents but came across that he was beneath her standards.

I admit he's defianetly not a model type or anything like that. He's a good guy and has a good heart. A bit spazzy & goofy but that is just him.

I don't need approval from my friends on who my friends are. Even though he doesn't know how the other person was I still feel bad he was judged that way. I guess I am just protective in this way now because of it. I'm always protective of my friends, but in different ways depending on the situation.

I love all my friends and are grateful for each. I also love my family very much. I know I don't always show and I can do better and I will.

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