Karma?
About a month or so ago I told my mom that I'm starting to get a little worried because I feel like Chad might try something again. She said to not worry that things were fine. I recently started to have nightmares and dreams about Chad. I think part of is because I recently started to move into his old room because it is bigger and I am tired of the smaller bedroom. Well shortly after saying that to my mom some of my pain medicines disappeared and so did my fathers. We just passed it off as maybe someone in the neighborhood. Also I thought I saw Chad's truck going passed my house a few times. I passed it off as paranoia because I was worried. Plus at night he'd be home with is wife. One night I said to my mom that I thought I just saw his truck go by but I know I'm just extremely worried he might do something. My dad interjected saying that he has thought he has seen him as well in the neighborhood. So it made me think.
I thankfully I was able to refill my pain meds. Than a few days later I only had about a week left. Someone had stolen them again. My dad discovered his his whole bottle of lortab missing including the bottle. I had no idea what was going on. We had an idea had our suspicions. but no way to prove it. Well I really started to put in the effort to rebuild my life. Today. I got an odd friend request for Chad's 2nd ex-wife. I put it to her in no certain terms that if she was contacting me for Chad that he would be in violation of the Permanent Protective Order and I have no problem in turning him into the police. She wrote back saying that she hasn't talked to him in about two months.
At that time he was living in a hotel cuz his wife had left him. He was homeless, jobless, mooching off his parents etc. She doesn't want anything to do with him, her husband doesn't really allow it, and she advises her daughters not to as well. Well at first I was happy to know that in a way "karma" bit him in the butt. Not because I want him back and not because his wife had problems cuz I hold nothing against her or him for that matter. Than all of a sudden the truth hit me. It really could have been Chad seen in the neighborhood. It really could have him in our house and stealing our medicine. It creeps me out that he may have been in my house. I started to cry earlier when it hit me.
I dont want the drama nor the stress. I admit I am scared but not as scared as I was earlier today. I'm done living in fear and having him control me. I know that I'm still vulnerable so that scares me. I don't want to deal with his garbage again, but its not going to stop me from moving on with improving me and my life. I might slow down a little on dating be more selective, but I'll just be careful and cautious. I know that I'm nothing spectacular, but I think its because I'm the one that got away. Plus I believe and so does my mother that he had it good with me. I'm not a bad girlfriend or fiance. I give probably more than I should. Oh well despite it all it is Chad's loss. If he is coming around he is in for a fight. The police have already been notified about our suspicions. The officer said I did the right thing by notifying them. So I'm glad I did. :)
I thankfully I was able to refill my pain meds. Than a few days later I only had about a week left. Someone had stolen them again. My dad discovered his his whole bottle of lortab missing including the bottle. I had no idea what was going on. We had an idea had our suspicions. but no way to prove it. Well I really started to put in the effort to rebuild my life. Today. I got an odd friend request for Chad's 2nd ex-wife. I put it to her in no certain terms that if she was contacting me for Chad that he would be in violation of the Permanent Protective Order and I have no problem in turning him into the police. She wrote back saying that she hasn't talked to him in about two months.
At that time he was living in a hotel cuz his wife had left him. He was homeless, jobless, mooching off his parents etc. She doesn't want anything to do with him, her husband doesn't really allow it, and she advises her daughters not to as well. Well at first I was happy to know that in a way "karma" bit him in the butt. Not because I want him back and not because his wife had problems cuz I hold nothing against her or him for that matter. Than all of a sudden the truth hit me. It really could have been Chad seen in the neighborhood. It really could have him in our house and stealing our medicine. It creeps me out that he may have been in my house. I started to cry earlier when it hit me.
I dont want the drama nor the stress. I admit I am scared but not as scared as I was earlier today. I'm done living in fear and having him control me. I know that I'm still vulnerable so that scares me. I don't want to deal with his garbage again, but its not going to stop me from moving on with improving me and my life. I might slow down a little on dating be more selective, but I'll just be careful and cautious. I know that I'm nothing spectacular, but I think its because I'm the one that got away. Plus I believe and so does my mother that he had it good with me. I'm not a bad girlfriend or fiance. I give probably more than I should. Oh well despite it all it is Chad's loss. If he is coming around he is in for a fight. The police have already been notified about our suspicions. The officer said I did the right thing by notifying them. So I'm glad I did. :)
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