The Good & Bad Happenings
Well since this blog is about the happenings of my life thought I would share some little things about so called life. I met a guy named Peter. Seemed really nice. Was supposedly active LDS and single. WRONG! We met and went for a ride. Wasn't a bad ride til he decided to park. We still talking he got smooth saying all the right things we made out. I didn't really want to, but yet I did. I felt cheap when done though. He tried more, but didn't happen. Than as he took me back to my truck he tells me he's still married, not sure when they are getting divorced ,he hesitatingly says he lives with roommates and than drops the subject. Then mention he does sleep at the wife's house when its his turn with the kids. Found out he is LDS, but not active. I can't hold that part against him just that he presented himself that way.
I have not been active in years and still not. Hoping to return Sunday. I was so sick by the time I got back to my truck because of making out with him. He has a wife. The whole situation reminded me of Chad with the stories he told to me and the other women he cheated on and with. I didn't like it. So the next day I text him (because I didn't have a number to call him on just a text number) told him I wanted nothing to do with him. He was too much like my ex and I deserve way better.
Next guy I was talking to was Shane 1. he supposedly played for the NFL and he tried to impress me with that and other crap. I told him that doesnt impress me its more about the man. He said he was raised LDS but no longer was. The one time we talked on the phone his language was vulgar and he wanted to have phone sex with both of us masterbaiting. I hung up and turned phone off. So sick to my stomach. I did text him to wish him well that he isn't the type of guy I wanted or needed and to never contact me again.
Than there was guy #3 we will call him 3 cuz I do not want to ever remember his name. I'll shall not go into detail but he made me feel crummy and used. He too wanted more than I was willing to give. Made me think he was interested in me as a person but he wasnt. Not a good night. I later text him and told him off. Told him he was a creep. He treats women badly etc. Told him to leave me alone. Not that I needed to I think he was after one if not two things and he got neither.
Well that brings us up to Shane 2. He is 39 6ft2 and he kinda chased me online, but not in a scary way. He was to be my last date, but that I asked for a redo cuz of the bad last few I needed a break. He kinda patiently waited. LOL Except for me to call once I said I would. Very sweet, considerate, a talker, a good story teller, and some similar good qualities that I liked in Chad. Which I dont think is a bad thing. Like I don't really like talking on the phone but I throughly enjoyed it. He made me laugh smile and very comfortable. It was nice. :)
Shane 2 is divorced and has 3 children who live with their mom. He does see them regularly. He is active LDS with a current temple recommend. :\ I don't. I want to get it not cuz he does and I don't, but for me. I miss the temple. I haven't been since Staci, Lu, her hubby Wayne, and I went to the San Diego Temple in 2004. Six months later my life and myself fell apart. I think its time to put me and my life back together, I am going to California in May to Huntington Beach Mid-Single Adult Conference. I want to be able to do all activities even go to the temple. I want to look and feel better when I go. I am so grateful for my friend Jannah Schmidt for inviting me to go along. It is going to be great fun and spiritually lifting!!!
I do have an appointment with my bishop tomorrow to get things back on track. I have learned a lot about me. I used to believe good things belonged to everyone else, BUT me. Now I don't believe that. I am reading two books Believing Christ and something about Forgiving Yourself. Very very helpful to understanding me and my hangups. I am so grateful for books like these to help me understand myself and what I need to work on.
I thank of you, for following my blog and for being there for me and helping me with your comments, concern, and constructive criticism. I need it all. I don't see myself as others see me so it is needed to know how I do come across so if I come across different as I intended I can do what I need to fine tune myself.
I have not been active in years and still not. Hoping to return Sunday. I was so sick by the time I got back to my truck because of making out with him. He has a wife. The whole situation reminded me of Chad with the stories he told to me and the other women he cheated on and with. I didn't like it. So the next day I text him (because I didn't have a number to call him on just a text number) told him I wanted nothing to do with him. He was too much like my ex and I deserve way better.
Next guy I was talking to was Shane 1. he supposedly played for the NFL and he tried to impress me with that and other crap. I told him that doesnt impress me its more about the man. He said he was raised LDS but no longer was. The one time we talked on the phone his language was vulgar and he wanted to have phone sex with both of us masterbaiting. I hung up and turned phone off. So sick to my stomach. I did text him to wish him well that he isn't the type of guy I wanted or needed and to never contact me again.
Than there was guy #3 we will call him 3 cuz I do not want to ever remember his name. I'll shall not go into detail but he made me feel crummy and used. He too wanted more than I was willing to give. Made me think he was interested in me as a person but he wasnt. Not a good night. I later text him and told him off. Told him he was a creep. He treats women badly etc. Told him to leave me alone. Not that I needed to I think he was after one if not two things and he got neither.
Well that brings us up to Shane 2. He is 39 6ft2 and he kinda chased me online, but not in a scary way. He was to be my last date, but that I asked for a redo cuz of the bad last few I needed a break. He kinda patiently waited. LOL Except for me to call once I said I would. Very sweet, considerate, a talker, a good story teller, and some similar good qualities that I liked in Chad. Which I dont think is a bad thing. Like I don't really like talking on the phone but I throughly enjoyed it. He made me laugh smile and very comfortable. It was nice. :)
Shane 2 is divorced and has 3 children who live with their mom. He does see them regularly. He is active LDS with a current temple recommend. :\ I don't. I want to get it not cuz he does and I don't, but for me. I miss the temple. I haven't been since Staci, Lu, her hubby Wayne, and I went to the San Diego Temple in 2004. Six months later my life and myself fell apart. I think its time to put me and my life back together, I am going to California in May to Huntington Beach Mid-Single Adult Conference. I want to be able to do all activities even go to the temple. I want to look and feel better when I go. I am so grateful for my friend Jannah Schmidt for inviting me to go along. It is going to be great fun and spiritually lifting!!!
I do have an appointment with my bishop tomorrow to get things back on track. I have learned a lot about me. I used to believe good things belonged to everyone else, BUT me. Now I don't believe that. I am reading two books Believing Christ and something about Forgiving Yourself. Very very helpful to understanding me and my hangups. I am so grateful for books like these to help me understand myself and what I need to work on.
I thank of you, for following my blog and for being there for me and helping me with your comments, concern, and constructive criticism. I need it all. I don't see myself as others see me so it is needed to know how I do come across so if I come across different as I intended I can do what I need to fine tune myself.
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