"Objects In Mirror Are Closer Than They Appear"

This entry really isn't about mirrors on vehicles, but the perception of things. My perception of one person was so clouded, but I also had a lot of faith in this person. Now this person is on the fringes of my life and I see them more clearly. They are with someone else, but they tell me they are not. I used to see so much more in them than I do now. My mom even commented after they were here not this Saturday, but the Saturday before that they are so different than when we were together. Their whole countenance is difference. Their spirit has changed. Its like the person they were is disappearing. I wonder if it was perception or if it was really there. I decided I want to believe the best of this person and believe it was there, but for some reason they are hiding their true self.

I know I need to stop hiding the real me as much as I do. I know I do it for fear of rejection and being hurt. Especially not being good enough. We are all children of a loving Heavenly Father than we are someone special so we need to not hide that. We all have bad parts/weaknesses but we can eventually overcome them if we truly want to. I need to be as I appear.

Comments

Julia said…
Let your light so shine!
May 4, 2010 at 8:58 PM
Shae Mickey said…
One of my motto's in life is, "If you can't be yourself around someone, why are you around them?" Be happy to be you.
May 5, 2010 at 11:29 PM
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