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So I realized a lot of my entries are sad or negative, but today wasn't.

I have this good male friend that I met a few years ago. Well a couple or so weeks ago my brothers gf Amber (yes also his ex-wife) decided that she & the rest of my immediate family needed to meet him.

She thinks I need to like him more than a friend. Been there done that. LOL Great guy, but I think my liking him more than a friend is uncomfortable for him. He handled it well & like a gentleman.

Today was fun. I was asked wasn't it nice to have a friend there and I have to admit it was. He is a fun guy & I always enjoy talking to him. Even though he & I are only friends it was nice to have my family's approval once again.

I had thought for a long time I couldn't trust my judgement, but now because of their approval & comments they made I'm beginning to believe I can. So that is a great feeling.

With my friend I can completely be myself & not worry about it's so nice. I think it's because he will never like me more than a friend so I don't have to worry about impressing him. It is a weight off my shoulders.

While I'd like to hang out with him again I don't know if it will happen. One I don't want to scare him off - even though I don't think that is possible. He's too nice. Plus I don't know how to do it's I am so backwards. :-)

My fam wants me to invite him when we go on our mini-family vacation next month. I'd like to if I knew exactly what we were doing. It would be nice not to be the odd person out. Each of my nieces are bringing a friend. So who knows! This would probably scare him off. LOL

All in all it was a good day.

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Julia said…
sounds like great fun! And I think you can totally trust your judgment! Have you figure out how you like your eggs yet?
August 13, 2011 at 4:04 PM
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