Stress & Frustration

I find myself almost in as stressful situation as I was last summer. Extra stressful situations like last summer and now make my four ulcers act up. Luckily not painful just make me sick to my stomach all the time.

So you ask what is causing this stress sickness? My brother. He moved in a couple of months ago after he and April broke up. It wasn't bad at first now it is. He has taken over the house and what used to be my truck. He has no respect for anyone.

Every other word out of his mouth is the "f" word even when little children are around.  Also he takes the Lord's name in vain frequently and that bugs me. I know it bugs my dad when they do it on tv so it's probably worse in his own home. Dad nor I can say anything because it starts family fued who knows which hundred we would be on.

My brother got after me for not helping my parents out more with money. I do the best I can on my fixed income paying on a title loan on a truck I don't even get to drive anymore. Plus paying my attorney still. Also paying on Directv that I don't even want but my mother and brother does. I pay half and my dad does to. I pay it cause its in my name. Does my brother offer to pay half when he has my dvr and watches dirctv more than me? No!

That night I brought up how he shouldn't even be mentioning money to me when he still owes me $2500 out of $3200 when technically I took off money for work he did on my car than told me it was a Christmas present. I than I was screwed on thats money. He has only paid $100 which I had to ask for in May for California. He borrowed ther money about 4.5 years ago.

Plus in May he told my cousin he would rent her house, but decided a less than a week later he wasn't. My cousins family was finally  to close on their new house Monday of this week my brother finally told her the next day.

I was going to ask for a summer raise since I had more of my cousins children more often, but thanks to my brother I can't. The cousin he .just messed up making her come up with a house payment is the same one I work for.

My brother is making it really uncomfortable to be in my own home, but now with no vehicle of my own (sharing) with my mom doesn't count and paying more than half of my monthly check to bills makes it so I can't leave to move or get out much.

Reminds me why I became so depressed in junior high and high school except  its worse. On a good note its nice having Amber and my nieces Abby n Aly her so much.

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